There's nothing in this world that you can get easily, there must be something you you must pullback. So do the love, the happiness, you need to make effort towards it. If you neglect your love, there's no way it can make a stand till the end. 

I've tried to protect it, even it is not as GOOD as you want, but you're the one who screwed it up. You always said that you've changed, but as i see it, its nothing or maybe 1% i don't know, you yourself who told me, and you are the one who supposed to know it better. I tried to change myself to better one, yes, I do. I'm sorry for disappointing you, but you disappointing me more. The mistake that i do is just to make you smile, but i'm not, yes you are smiling like you always but i'm sorry i can't smile together with you.

You said i'm am perfect as who i am and don't need others except you, but its not true, never. You've wrong, I need others to, i have a life, i have a family and friends. I glad to know you at first, because i thing you're different, but i've wrong because you are just the same with others. And i can't erase the thing you've done before, i know its not me, but still, i can't. My mouth might said so, but my heart is NOT. I'm sorry dear mr. H.A. 

It's true but you can't you force your heart to forget it eh ?